I feel that I've let my life run away from me. I'm not sure that there's anyone I can blame for this but me, although it seems that I've been laying my issues at the feet of another. I think too much and always have, perhaps often say too well exactly what I'm thinking when in fact I should hold myself more in check. There comes a time when you no longer know why you're so hurt and upset, when you lose sight of the reasons why. It's hard to work back from that but if you don't you know exactly what the path ahead will look like. I never realised before that it's almost easier to be angry and so much harder to work through that and see the other side where everything is as you imagined it could be. Those first steps, well I'm honestly not sure how to take them.