Monday, May 23, 2011

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I feel that I've let my life run away from me. I'm not sure that there's anyone I can blame for this but me, although it seems that I've been laying my issues at the feet of another. I think too much and always have, perhaps often say too well exactly what I'm thinking when in fact I should hold myself more in check. There comes a time when you no longer know why you're so hurt and upset, when you lose sight of the reasons why. It's hard to work back from that but if you don't you know exactly what the path ahead will look like. I never realised before that it's almost easier to be angry and so much harder to work through that and see the other side where everything is as you imagined it could be. Those first steps, well I'm honestly not sure how to take them.

7 comments:

Cindy said...

I don't know of the steps either, but I am sure that the braveness used to write this post will go a long way to helping. xx

Julia said...

Wow! You have just put into words what my life is like right now. I'm feeling the same way. Stuck. Don't want to be in this mental space. Not sure how to get out, which way to go, but I know for sure its not working this way. I've even stopped blogging because I keep sitting at the computer not knowing what to say or how to word my thoughts. I'm sharing this so you know you're not alone. Hugs. x

Sarah said...

Oh my gosh Vic -this is NOT like you!!!!

Remember our chat a while back?

kristi said...

chin up. x.

Sandy said...

It sounds like you need to go to that island that Anne Morrow stayed on and release all your tensions and fears. Comb the beach, find some pretty pebbles and reflect on your life, take a breath. If you need any help getting back on track, I am here for you!

handmade romance said...

i wish i knew those first steps to help you on the way but i think possibly acknowledging what you have in this post could actually help - our paths are all different anyway. wishing you all the best and hoping your life stops running : ) x

two little buttons said...

Victoria, you seem to express so well how i feel about so many things, i too feel the same at the moment, lost, 2 babes growing and stretching their wings and resisiting /testing me... me questioning it all and not seeing through the haze. thanks for sharing, i hope you can start to see clearly soon as the steps become clear, i am sharing so you know your not alone. life is hard sometimes. one step at a time and i hope it improves for you xo
naomi