Tuesday, May 01, 2012

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I started a post a few days ago that gave far too much detail.  At times I find it hard, when I have so much going on inside my head, to get it cohesively onto the page.  Things just feel complicated and it's making my body feel heavy and just icky.

I'm finding it hard to find something upbeat to share, and yet I still share...


Life is going to change a lot around here and I need to get my head around my new direction and despite perhaps talking things up at times, I'm not real good with change.  Is anyone?  My job's ending after over 7 years, and I'm finding it hard to get to grips with what I'll do next, I'm letting myself get overwhelmed.  I need to do some exercise,  I feel icky from that too, a random thought of not much value at all.

The photo is from this year's summer holiday, I feel I could do with some time to just sit and think things through a la "Gifts from the Sea".  I actually have it on my ipod, perhaps I'll have a listen.

I'll get there, just flailing a little right now.


7 comments:

Sandy said...

Follow your heart. Think positively, that this change is a sign for good things to come. I know it is overwhelming, but as you know, life can deal us hard blows. Burst through all the uncertaintly and make it into a wonderful new chapter in your life. We all believe in you!

Jo said...

Change is hard, so is forging into the unknown; but, as all those old clichés say, when one door closes...

Can't wait to share your journey with you, as I am sure that it will be beautiful and wonderful.

{and please remember, that I'm always here if you want to catch up for a cuppa and a chat x}

Bek said...

Sorry to hear you are unsettled. I don't cope with change well at all, so I empathize, especially as it involves something as significant as a job. Time will tick on, and you will find a new peace I am sure of it. X

Susan said...

bummer about the job. I'm sure you'll be able to tap your talents into something else that's wonderful but transitions always suck a bit (don't they?). I can totally relate to this post - I've had quite a few things going on that I didn't really feel able to share details of on my blog - it's hard to keep writing when you feel like you're avoiding all the significant stuff. Sending you positive thoughts across the interwebs!

Kiki said...

You may think I talk things up too but I am certainly not one for change. Yet I surprise myself and then I am, for me it depends on what the subject is. Totally life changing or not.

If we could have coffee and cake this morning I would tell you that it is going to work out fine, in your favour. You're a smart lady and you have a long list of items to cross off.

If my advice is of any worth I would like to offer you this - take that time, take one night away by yourself and sit wherever it is you like to sit the most. The sea, the country, the winery? Just sit and think as the thoughts come to you. Let the emotions roll.

I hate being this far away......today would be a good day for meeting up.

Sarah said...

Oh Vic! Dont fight it - this is EXCITING times. YOU need to go through these feelings. They are all part of the process to a new path - they are NORMAL. They are GOOD. Imagine what lies ahead!!!

It will come together and down the track on reflection you will go YES. Reflect on how you have grown and found just that little bit more of peace since your emotional journey only so recently...

We all have these flailing times. Whether they are from feeling like you are over being a SAHM or changing jobs. Go with it and breath.

I am so looking forward to seeing what happens.

kristi said...

i am finding it hard to stay positive lately too. your note the other day was so sweet, truly, i have been thinking of you. i do have a good friend here, who i can be completely honest with, one who never judges. chin up, and i'll do the same. x